Faffing.

The kiln is slowly ramping up. I have some glass chocolates to make today, for an event happening in my town next week. I don’t usually make glass chocolates, so the variety will be fun. I am not sure how many I need to make I will just go until I burn out, I guess! There are other beads I want to make to work on some new ideas with focals. I am not sure I have time for both today. I need to go do some shopping errands and then go take my son to an appointment after school. 

The extra hours I have now sure get eaten up fast. A lot of it is related to my business, as it should be, but I still feel a little like I am spinning wheels. I  have been to Home Depot many times this week, and I am almost done with my ventilation system for soldering. I just need a stud finder…. for walls, people, for walls… 😉

Once I have that I can hang the intake fan, I hope, and then connect everything together. I made the collection box over the past couple days, using old wood that my friend Raya gave me. We did a dump run emptying out my backyard and hers of excess junk and wood, and I salvaged one piece from the wood recycling pile of hers and kept it in the trailer to use later, which I now have.Collection Box

This box will sit behind my soldering station. I could have it done in a day or two, if I had the stud finder!

And then I can really get going on the soldering half of things. Glass, I can do right now, but I am busy building the soldering station! It’s frustrating but necessary. I checked in with myself if it is some sort of fear, busywork to avoid actual work that could sell, or wouldn’t, but no, that really isn’t it. But life has  way of crowding in on you. Space opens up and it quickly gets filled with all those things you think you must do. I will protect this time that I have gained and simply not let anything else get in the way of what belongs there. My work. juiceglass. Priority studio time Wednesdays and Fridays.

I’ll settle into the routine, once there is a routine. I’m building it. But sometimes actual building knocks it off kilter. 

My guy, Grant, calls this sort of thing “faffing.” I think I’m not quite truly faffing here, as stuff IS getting done that needs to be done. But it sure feels like it when I have bills and I need to get things churned out for the summer galleries. Even with the extra time, it feels…scarce.

How do you prioritize? Get things done?

Doing all the Things

Morning Forest Walk

Life sure fills the holes that appear pretty quickly.

 

I tried to start my day filling it with something other than direct work, before I got sucked in. I took a photo to share on my walk this morning, before returning the glass studio, the kiln heated and up to temperature.

Morning Forest Walk
Morning Forest Walk

This has been my first week with my new schedule, where I have three days to be in the studio instead of one. “In the studio” this week means setting it up.

I have two of them. One, which I posted in my last post, is the glass studio, built for me by my amazing father. It’s set up for glass work with total safety in terms of materials, air, ventilation.

I soldered in there, now and again, when I was dabbling in metalsmithing. Now that that is the direction I plan to go, with my glass, I need to set something up just as safe in the area where the metal and jewelry studio will be. That room is in my house, separate from the glass studio. So it needs its own ventilation and safe area for playing with fire.

The financial outlay is a little scary. I know I need these things to do my work safely. So I am gathering them this week. It won’t be perfect in terms of seamless venting out the window without outside summer heat getting back in, but within the week I think I should have things set up to go.

I’m not going to give up beads. I will make my favorites and continue to learn and expand on my favorite designs. Find ways to combine the two, beads and sterling, with fabrication. I don’t really know what all of this is going to look like yet, in terms of where my voice goes. But all the while I will be making the things I love to stock the galleries I am in, and in some FB groups I am a part of.

But I am also going to work on, and take care of, me. Yesterday I went out and got makeup. This is a rather large thing for me. For most of my life I have considered it a frivolous expenditure beyond the very basics. I have not wanted to put the time into learning how to do it well. But, what the heck. I’m comfortable wearing what I want into my old age, but I may as well have some fun while I still don’t look like a Grandmother. So I splurged (a little) on myself and got a couple makeup brushes, and have some things to practice. Like not getting eyeshadow in my EYES.  I definitely didn’t get the girl gene to be good at this stuff. But,  it’s fun.

And walks. I will be taking more walks, now that time is available to me. To get me moving and thinking and out there early in the morning, before the heat of the day slips in.

Also, my son has a school fundraiser tomorrow, and I made all these homemade Oreos to sell.

Cookies!
Cookies!

I mean, LOOK. AT. THOSE.  Maybe I should sell cookies instead. :p

Losing Sight of the Shore

The inside of my glass art studio.

There’s a quote. I am sure you’ve heard it, about losing sight of the shore. I think I first came across it at one of my string of years at summer camp, out in the trees living in a big canvas tent with all my belongings in a footlocker at the end of my cot.

“Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.”- Andre Gide

Trite, well-worn. But, I suppose, true in many circumstances. At the root of it, you can sit in your safe box and be safe, but grow bored. Or you can get uncomfortable, and grow and experience new things. This is true in work, in home, in relationships, all of it. Excitement and fear, uneasiness and nervous butterflies all go hand in hand.

Me.
Me.

In all my years I’ve never made a true stab at supporting myself on my glass, and beyond. The little span of time I had a chance, I leapt at a temporary opportunity to work as a tour manager, traveling around in vans and tour busses supporting musicians from backstage and behind the merch table. I’d not trade those days for anything, but they did take me away from my studio during the year I had the opportunity to sit down in it the most. And before I knew it, in terms of time, I became a mother. Awesome. Overwhelming, and one heck of a giant, lovely, incredible time-suck.

My son is now 8. I am now a co-parent instead of a married one. Like most of the statistics, I took a huge pay hit with the end of the marriage, and changed my life to fit that so that I could be home for my son when I have him. His Dad and I are great coparents, and I am grateful for the awesome relationship we now have raising our son.

Events at my work shifted last week, and I have been cut adrift, to a degree. Not entirely, but enough to look once again, finally, at the studio, and see what I can do within it to support myself. I had been questioning this the very day before, on Facebook. And, if one believes in such things, the Universe took notice, perked up and said “Oh yeah? Well, then… here you GO!”

 

The inside of my glass art studio.
The inside of my glass art studio.

So, I’m going with it. I’m taking the lesser hours at my job and am going to fill them with my own work. It will be longer work, harder work, but my own. I’ll give it my best shot. It’s real this time.

More studio time. More blog entries, newsletters, networking, and creating relationships with the wonderful humans that enjoy what I do, and want to have pieces of it to call their own. I hope, if you are reading this, you go on this journey with me while I start losing sight of the shore.

So, to facilitate that, here’s a quick list of where I can be found, and my glass and silver and stone work can be found. I love looking at art online, it’s like a little oasis when it scrolls by in my feeds. If you feel the same, here are ways to add me to that art stream. I’ve done social media as a job for years, I know the rules and what to post when and how to not blanket people with STUFF TO SELL. It will be a fun ride, more than just my art,  I promise you, and all channels will not be identical. Please, come along with me!

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